Transforming the way you see yourself one post-it note at a time
Thank you ladies, for sharing your stories. May you continue to be healthy.
I am 18 years old, and am on the journey to recovering from anorexia, bulimia, and obsessive compulsive exercising. After dating a silly boy for a little over a year; after hearing that I was never good enough; after being physically, sexually, mentally, and emotionally abused by him, I developed an eating disorder. I ended the relationship, but the effects of it still tormented me. At first, my ED was a way to calm myself and “fix” what he had broken. After a while though, it became an obsession. I couldn’t calm my anxiety and anger without eating as little as possible and exercising up to three times a day. Sadly, I violently abused my five foot four inch frame. I used to hold a healthy 116 pounds, but after losing weight I was classified as severely underweight. My BMI scale was 1 out of 100. At my lowest, I weighed 93 pounds. This was far too close to physical collapse, and my psychologist warned me that I was on the edge of being committed to a permanent stay at an ED clinic.
With the tremendous support from my Mom, Dad, three loving sisters, and grandparents, I have fought back against this terrible disorder that haunts so so many unnecessary victims. I have gained 21 pounds back in 6 months, but know that I am still on the road to recovery. I have grown physically so far, learning balance and wellness, but mentally I know I need to love myself and find inner peace. It is my goal to one day be completely happy in mind, body, and soul. I visit the Operation Beautiful web site every day to find comfort in a world that is otherwise full of negative body imagery. A message to everyone out there: God doesn’t make junk. You are beautiful and unique. Life is too short…so live it to the fullest. Laugh. And most of all, LOVE yourself and others.
Allison, In reading your story, gives me so much more understanding of the real you. I only with I could have somehow been of more help before the situation got out of hand. For anyone in this world, whether you have been here for a while, or are on the journey to healthy living… Please know that U ARE LOVED. Never let anyone make you feel less than you are, and always beleve in the future. The positive, We are all fighters, and to survive, we must never let our guard down. Success is only one step away…. we just have to be willing to believe in our own selves. Yes, this is your mama, but friend as well. I truely hope anyone out there who has dealt with this kind of pain takes all the strength of this site, and grows to stronger and more inner peace than they ever thought possible. Let the love of your family and friends help make you strong. BEAUTY is what we make of ourselves, AS GOD has made us. Do not change perfection!
Thank you all so much for sharing. This website is beyond amazing, and I thank whoever started it. I’ve been suffering from an eating disorder, and body dimorphic disease for over 4 years now, and I’m only 15. If I would have found this when I started “hating myself” my life would be completely different. Yeah, of course people told me I was beautiful, but I never once believed it. This amazing website makes it hard to not feel beautiful. Currently, I’m working on getting into therapy and finding beauty in myself, and this website has been extremely helpful. To anyone facing this disorder, remember YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! No matter how hard it is to believe, you were created to be exactly the way you are. You are beautiful no matter how many people you compare yourself to, no one will replace you. You must first find beauty in yourself before you can expect someone else to. Love yourself. Believe in yourself. Have confidence in yourself. & stay beautiful <3
Stay strong, you will make it through!! You are a gift from God…Live each day to the fullest. <3
Thank you so much! That made my day! May you also live each day to the fullest <3
Allison,Thank You for sharing your story. You sure seem to be stronger than I was when I was my 18 year old self. If I knew back then what I know now, I would have taken full control of loving myself. I think that growing up,
all women at one point or another become insecure about who they are. For the women who deal with abuse, neglect, don’t feel like they fit in, or just don’t appreciate their looks are very prone to developing this life threatening disease. There is not currently enough understanding from the public about how serious this disease is. The women on here that have gotten their eating disorder under control are all very driven and dedicated women that had to put themselves first. And for those women such as you who are working on recovery, are very strong as well for being so dedicated to the health of yourself. To get through an eating disorder is like battling cancer. You should applaud yourself for this and just keep moving forward. Tell yourself you are beautiful everyday and know that everything happens for a reason. Something positive will come from this horrible thing called ED. Also, if you haven’t read life without ED, I encourage you to do so. It really helped me get through recovery. -Alissa
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